Friday, February 5, 2010

The "Female" Side of Duchenne

It was a long time ago that I sat in the exam room and received the diagnosis. My boys had Duchenne. The diagnosis was followed by a series of questions about my family history, the doctor assuming that somewhere along the line, there was another boy long ago. In my case, there was no history. None. I asked every living member of my mother’s family what they knew, if there was someone who had an unnamed ‘problem’, someone who was weak, or a child who died young from an unnamed illness. One of my cousins talked about my "crazy Uncle Harry” who fell off the roof, but it hardly fit the picture I was looking for. I had a brother Jack, who died young, at the age of 42. A heart attack after jogging. He was my closest friend and I wondered if he might have had a mild form of Duchenne – decent muscle strength, but severe cardiomyopathy. It was always a question.

I guess it would have been easier to simply test my mother, but she had her own issues with the diagnosis. Catholic guilt. She had the sense that a god would punish her for past deeds and I did not want to create additional burden for her. I left it alone, an open wound. For years, I wondered. In retrospect, I wonder if I just wanted to be able to point the finger at someone else. I didn’t want to be the first carrier, the de novo mutation in my family. It seemed so unfair and it felt like I did something wrong somehow. OK, intellectually, I realize, spontaneous mutations occur frequently. The dystrophin gene is particularly susceptible based on its large size. Eric Hoffman suggests 1:10,000 egg and sperm cells carry the mutation as a new event. Random. Right, but emotionally it still hurts. Motherhood and guilt.

Just before the FACES meeting in Colorado, we met with Ivy Scherbarth and Angela Knight. It is always a question. Are you a carrier?. We discussed and compared carrier vs non carrier. Ivy had tears in her eyes as she had looked back through her family, tracing what must have been Duchenne generations back. Angela, not a carrier, said that either way, having a child diagnosed with a genetic disease is accompanied by guilt. I think she’s right. There is no way and no need to compare the feelings. Mom’s feel responsible. But there are more questions and strings attached to the word “Carrier” and the word stings somehow, sometimes feels like an indictment, with questions about prior knowledge, muscle weakness and concerns about the risk heart disease.

Carriers are working on two dystrophin genes, one carrying the mutation and one without. And we are hopeful that our cells opt to use the “good” gene, the gene that does not carry the mutation, producing normal quantities of dystrophin in every muscle and tissue of our bodies. But sometimes it does not work that way. When moms talk about this openly, some share stories of muscle cramps, weakness, fatigue. One mom recently mentioned she had a weak handshake and her doctor thought it was characteristic of a carrier. That sounds a little over the top to me as handshakes are personal, dictated by much more than muscle strength. I think the answer may be somewhere in the middle. Some moms have weakness ranging from mild to severe. These moms are referred to as ‘manifesting carriers’, their cells opting to utilize the genetic recipe for dystrophin that is inaccurate, incomplete. This is referred to as X-linked inactivation, where the cells essentially turn off the ‘good’ gene with the accurate recipe for dystrophin. And, depending on the degree of the X-linked inactivation, there will be weakness, from cramping to weakness to loss of function, sometimes severe.

Carrier moms also need to take care of their heart. Statistics suggest that 10% of female carriers are at risk. I’m not sure where that statistic comes from. I have seen some papers suggesting the risk is greater. To be honest, I think the statistic is not important as the fact that we need to take care of ourselves. As moms, we often ignore our health to take care of our family. How we feel is last on our list as long as we are getting out of bed and managing to get through the day. I think all women need to pay attention to their heart. Heart disease is common in women and it is essential that we keep our hearts beating strong for ourselves and for everyone who depends on us. Carrier or not – take care of your heart.

And girls with Duchenne. If a young man with Duchenne married a carrier of Duchenne, it is possible that they could have a daughter with Duchenne. I would guess this is indeed very rare. But it could happen. For the most part, girls with Duchenne have X-linked inactivation, where the cells turn off the normal or ‘good’ dystrophin gene. Depending on the degree of this X-linked inactivation, their progression could be the same as a boy with Duchenne. Because Duchenne affects boys 99% of the time, we talk about Duchenne in male terms. Every photo you see will show a boy. In the US, we are guessing around 10-15 girls have Duchenne. While Duchenne is not a club you want to join, I cannot imagine how it feels to be in the club but feel that you are standing in the back of the crowd, unnoticed.

I think this is a discussion we need to have – Carriers, manifesting carriers, girls with Duchenne. If you have any ideas about this, please let me know. You can always email me at Pat@parentprojectmd.org.

And to end my own personal story. I did have my mother tested just last year, assuming in my heart that she would be a carrier as well. She was not.

My father’s company manufactured Doctor bags, the old time doctor bags you may have seen in films. To this day, they are called “Schell bags”. Every Sunday, I would ride with him into town, to the factory (Schell Leather Goods) where he would light the glue pots, so that by Monday, when the men working in the factory arrived, the glue would have reached the appropriate temperature for the leather to adhere to the wood frame. I remember a strange sweet smell wafting through the plant after a few minutes. In conversations with other carriers, some mentioned that their fathers worked with chemicals – fertilizers, pesticides, stuff.

I’ll always wonder. It’s human nature. 

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Pat,
Your comments raise the question I am always asking-why can't our daughters get tested to find out if they are carriers? If they indeed can have heart problems, why can we not know sooner so that we can begin monitoring their heart sooner? I am frustrated that this decision to test is for the most part taken out of parents hands.

Anonymous said...

Pat,
Thanks for your article. My son was diagnosed with Beckers and I have yet to be tested as a carrier. We have not told my mom about the diagnosis yet because she's been in and out of the hospital since October, with pneumonia, congestive heart failure and anemia. I fear if I tell her about her grandson it will kill her yet I fear keeping this at least from her cardiologist will kill her too - Suggestions???

Karen Stahler said...

Dear Pat,
My grandson was the first in my family to be diagnosed with Duchennes. My daughter was found to be a carrier. I feel if she was a boy, she would have had Duchennes. My sister had MS for forty years and I wonder if there is a connection between MS and MD. One is nerves, one muscles. But, could they be genetically related somehow?

Unknown said...

Dear Pat,
It has been a long time since I saw you last, but your story is told so well and is exactly how us mothers feel. My ex-husband blamed me for our son having Duchenne, even though no other relatives have had this disease, as far back as I know. I later got tested and found out I am not a carrier at all. But, the guilt you somehow feel as a mother has been enormous! Thank you for sharing your story! Wishing you all the best!

KM said...

Thank you for this post - I found it through the PPMD Facebook feed. As we find better ways to help each other with these issues, please also don't forget about the ramifications of being tested earlier. I was tested at age 12 and am a carrier. I am now 27 and have watched my younger brother struggle with MD for years. I am now going through IVF with PGD in order to hopefully avoid passing on the gene to my children. I am thankful that I was tested early so that I knew, but the IVF process is very emotionally and physically difficult. I've had a hard time finding resources to help me through it. I started my own blog in the hopes that it might help other women going through this process in the future.

Unknown said...

I'm not a carrier. I searched hard through my family before I was tested. Not one family member other then my son. Before I was tested to see if I am a carrier, I recall how careful the genetics counselor tried to assure me that this is no way my fault. Well, how could I have known? I had no reason to believe there was any type of muscular dystrophy in my family. My husband and I purposefully chose to not do all the blood work during pregnancy because so many of those tests produce false positives. I've seen my friends torn to pieces with those tests. While I hate the fact my son has DMD, it was not my fault I cannot imagine feeling any other way if I were to have been a carrier. I didn't know. You didn't know. Could you have known? Highly doubtful! DMD is not our burden of guilt. Will I always wonder what environmental factor contribute to my son's diagnosis? Sure, but I'll never know. I cannot help what I cannot change. Instead, I can move forward with the information I have.

Please understand that my posting is to let other mothers like myself to know that is okay to not have guilt either. I mean no disrespect and I do understand why we would take on this guilt. Just know you don't have to hold on to it. Don't keep it if you don't have to do so. Your son and/or daughter needs you to let go and stop beating yourself up over something you cannot change. Change what you do from here. Take care of yourself because you are worth it =)

With great respect and admiration for all moms and daughters,

Liisa

Anonymous said...

My nephew has Duchenne, but my sister is not a carrier. Yet my mother's grief at his diagosis was heightened by guilt, extreme guilt, that she somehow had 'caused' her child and grandchild to suffer this horrible disease. Maybe it's just something irrational, part of our grief at this terrible thing we cannot change? I do agree completely that it is something moms, carriers or non-carriers, shoud let go of...you are no more responsible for DMD than you are for your child's sex, despite the contribution of your genetic material...

melsers said...

Pat,
My little girl has just been diagnosed as being a manifesting carrier of duchenne muscular dystrophy. She will be five in May and has always had a development delay with her gross motor skills. She appeared clumsy and would fall easily. She has large calf muscles and has attended physio for over a year. We have no history of DMD in the family and infact my bloods show I am not a carrier.

This has been such an emotionally draining time for my whole family. I am an identical twin and my sister has a five year old daughter and a one year old son. The wait for my results had implications for the whole family. My mum told me she felt guilt even though nothing implicated her as a carrier. I feel relief for my sister that we are not carriers and she does not have to be tested along with my niece and nephew. I also feel guilt for feeling relief as I would love to have more children myself but this does not change my little girls diagnosis or future.

I worry that this could happen again and am awaiting genetic counselling but may have to live with the fact that my daugther may have been very unlucky.

I am dismayed at the lack of information on manifesting carriers. As my daughter is manifesting symptoms at a young age I worry this is an indication she may have a more severe manifestation. I just don't know!!!

Ms. D. said...

Dear Pat,
I am a 41 year old female whose brother is a 45 year old who was diagnosed with Becker (first Duchenne and then rediagnosed) when he was 5 years old. I was tested many times as a child and was told that I was not a carrier and then was told that the testing is not always accurate and that I should be tested once I become pregnant. It was for this reason that I decided to have a tubal ligation in 2000. I spent many years trying to figure out why I had trouble with stairs and chest pain, not to mention very severe fatigue and weakness. In 2001 I visited an MDA clinic and approached the MDA neurologist about my possibly being a manifesting carrier. He was an unpleasant man who spoke to me in a dissmissive manner, "your calves are not enlarged!" I tried my best to speak with him further but it was obvious he thought that I was ridiculous, even when I explained my research about manifesting carriers. In 2005 I was diagnosed with Relapsing-Remitting MS but to this day I cannot help but wonder as many neurologists told me they were not sure if it is indeed MS.

Theresa841 said...

I am also a manifesting carrier for DMD. I had three brothers with the disease. I have muscle weakness, pain, fatigue, heart problems, andhave problems going up and down stairs. I am 40 years old and I feel like the problems are getting worse. Does anyone know if any manifesting carriers stop walking?